February 8th came & went, but it didn't go by without some serious reflections. You see, that day marked the one year anniversary of our move to Minnesota. It's crazy that it's been that long. When I think back, I can still feel that same fear and hear those same questions that went through my brain.
Some may call this lack of faith. :)
How were we going to handle being12 hours from family with a 3 week old baby?
How was I going to survive without family close?
Can we raise this baby, literally, on our own?
Will we survive a Minnesota winter?
Can I handle this much CHANGE?
I wish I could say those were all of my questions that I kept asking the Lord, but I know there were lots, lots, lots more. We have had an incredible year of lots of changes. It all started with finding out we were pregnant, then finding a new church and finally the job situation. God reminded me daily, even among all of my doubts, that He is Faithful and through Him I find courage.
Now for the glimpse into the future. I'll let Deacon show you.
Yes, that says "Big Bro." It's true. Baby #2 will arrive around October 2nd. This was planned ONLY by the good Lord himself. We had nothing to do with this decision....absolutely nothing.
So now, the questions start again. :)
How am I going to take care of TWO kids?
How do you function from lack of sleep?
Can I get through this pregnancy and still take care of a 1 year old?
...and on and on and on and on they come. I'm always reminded that God is Faithful and it is only by His Grace that I survive my everyday anyways. So, as I look to the future, I can only trust that He will give me the daily dose of Grace that I need.